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我还是和之前合作的那家公司一起工作。

I'm doing it with the same company that I did it with.

他们很喜欢我。

They loved me.

他们亲自发消息给我，说我太可爱了。

They personally messaged me, they're like, you're so cute.

你知道吗？

You know?

不过他们确实...

But they yeah.

我真的很兴奋。

I'm really excited.

一周后就要开始了。

It's in a week.

因为疫情隔离，我感觉自己现在是最圆润的状态，不过没关系。

I feel the chunkiest I've ever been because of lockdown, but I'm yeah.

我试着去喜欢

I'm trying to like

没关系。

That's alright.

你在家锻炼，而且不管怎样你看起来依然很美。

You got your home workouts and you still look beautiful regardless.

可爱。

Cute.

周三有个女孩要搬来和我一起住。

And I have a girl moving in on Wednesday.

哦，那对你来说会是个新变化。

Oh, that's gonna be different for you.

是的。

Yes.

我是说，一个人住很惬意，但有人一起住也会很棒。

I mean, living by myself has been lovely, but I mean, it's gonna be nice.

我觉得我已经把自己困在这种非常、非常孤独的状态里，几乎到了可能开始变得不健康的程度，就是只想一个人待着。

I think it's I think I've built put myself in this, like, really, really lonely state where I think it's almost gone to a point where it might start to become unhealthy, where I just wanna be alone.

就是你完全不出门了。

Where you're out.

几乎已经走向另一个极端，你既不想出门也不想做任何事。

It's almost gone too much in the other direction where you don't want to go out and don't want to do things.

你是这个意思吗？

Is that what you're it's making

让我有点焦虑。

me a little bit anxious.

是的。

Yeah.

没错。

Right.

嗯。

Yeah.

我觉得其实挺有意思的，因为在封城期间，我读到一篇文章讲到墨尔本的人们，他们经历了太长时间的封锁。

I feel like and actually, it's funny because in lockdown, I read an article that and I think this happened for people in Melbourne because they spent so long in lockdown.

而且他们被迫陷入孤独——因为很多独居的人，当封锁逐渐解除时，很多人对出门社交产生了焦虑，他们已经太习惯独处、做自己的事，以至于重新出门对他们来说变得非常令人畏惧和害怕，他们根本不想出去。

And, they were forced into their loneliness because but lots of people who live by themselves, apparently, when they all came started coming out of lockdown, a lot of people had got this anxiety about going out and socializing with people because they've gotten so used to just being on their own, doing their own thing that it was actually very daunting and very scary for them to go out and they didn't want to.

我觉得这对我最初独居时反而是健康的。是的。

Which I think was healthy for me when I first lived by myself Yeah.

因为确实。

Because Yeah.

我以前从未独处过，而且讨厌独自一人。

I had never been and I hated my own company.

现在我爱上了

Now I love

独处。

it.

没错。

Yes.

我觉得独自生活确实是一个很健康的转变。

I feel like it was a really healthy change living by myself.

我觉得我对自己有了更深的了解。

I feel like I've really learned a lot about myself.

嗯。

Mhmm.

现在我真的非常享受独处的时光。

And now I genuinely love my own company.

不过...前几天我试着和姐妹们出去，结果完全慌了神。

However That's really I tried to go out with the girls the other night, I was, like, full on panicking.

嗯。

Mhmm.

姐妹们都在努力劝我冷静下来，但我就是...没法出门，因为实在不想和人接触。

And the girls were trying to, like, talk me into sort of calming down, and I was just like, I can't go out because, you know, I just don't wanna be around people.

我爱你们姐妹们，也想和你们在一起，但就是...

I love you girls, and I wanna be around you girls, but I just don't.

我还是出门了。

And I went out.

我玩得很开心。

I had a great time.

所以如果你听到这里，这就是给你的信号，尽管去做吧，因为没关系的，你会没事的。

So this is if if you're hearing this, this is your sign to just go and do it because it's fine and you'll be okay.

没错。

Exactly.

而且家永远会在那里。

And it's like home will always be there.

是啊。

Yeah.

出去走走、尝试说'好'是没问题的。

It's okay to go out and to just say yes to things.

对。

Yeah.

所以我

So I

这个要搬进来的女孩比我年轻很多。

think this girl moving in, she's a lot younger than me.

我认识她很多很多年了。

I've known her for years and years.

她要搬进来，我觉得会不错，因为她想要开派对和外出。

She's moving in, I think it'll be good because she wants a party and get out.

所以我就想，好吧。

So I'm like, okay.

也许这能逼我自己多出去

Maybe this is a good thing for me to force myself to get out of

一点。

a bit more.

慢慢重新走出去，你知道，最终这会成为一种习惯。

Slowly get get out there again and, you know, eventually and it's kind of like creating a habit, you know.

又不是说你非得

And it's not like you have to

每晚都出去狂欢，而是要重新养成外出活动的习惯。

go out partying every night, but it's like creating a habit to go out and do things once again.

你懂吗？

You know?

是的。

Yes.

没错。

Exactly.

别再在沙发上做爱了，不过

No more sex on the couch, but

我是说，至少她不知道的那些。

I mean, that she knows of.

她已经隔离两周了，真该死。

She's had to quarantine for two weeks, so fuck.

哦，不。

Oh, no.

我觉得在接下来两周她确诊前，绝对不能在沙发上做爱。

I I feel like definitely no sex on the couch for two weeks until she got it.

两周。

Two weeks.

时间不算太长。

That's not too long.

罗谢尔，如果你听到这个，我很抱歉。

Rochelle, if you're hearing this, I'm sorry.

别坐那张沙发。

Don't sit on the couch.

永远别坐。

Ever.

不过确实。

But yeah.

黛西告诉我一些事情。

So Daisy told me about something.

我不知道是否有人感到有点混乱，但黛西确实如此，因为我昨晚经历了一件非常奇怪的事，这种情况已经很久没发生过了，因为我一直处于‘女王模式’。

I don't know if anyone's been feeling a little bit all over the place, but Daisy has because I had a really weird experience last night, which I haven't had in a while because I've been in my bad bitch mode.

不过黛西，如果你想读点什么的话。

But, Daisy, if you wanna read something.

好的。

Okay.

嗯。

Yeah.

这是个关于月亮和星座的事情。

So it's a it's a a moon and zodiac kind of thing.

我刚才还在和Shondre提到这个，基本上如果你关注一个叫‘姐妹村’的Ins账号，他们做得非常棒。

So I was just mentioning this to Shondre before, but basically and if you follow this Instagram called Sisters Village, they're so great.

他们提供了很多关于星座、月亮当前阶段等这类信息的详细解读。

They're very informative about star signs and what what transition what stage the moon is in and everything like that.

所以如果你感觉有点不对劲，我总会去查看一下。

So if you're ever feeling a bit funny, I always have a little look at it.

基本上，目前太阳正在与水星逆行对齐。

And, basically, at the moment, the sun is aligning with Mercury retrograde.

警告信号。

Warning bells.

上面说，当太阳和水星都在水瓶座对齐时，你可能会发现自己陷入思维的循环中，不断思考未来、过去以及介于两者之间的一切。

And it says, as the sun and Mercury both align together in the sign of Aquarius, you may find yourself stuck in a loop within your mind thinking of the future, thinking of the past, and everything else in between.

大量脑雾和不确定性。

Lots of brain fog and uncertainty.

无论未来几天浮现出什么过往记忆，把它们连同背后的情绪都记录下来。

Whatever past memories come up for you over the next few days, journal them down and the emotions behind these.

它们正在显现，因为它们需要你意识到，需要你真正感受并处理与这些记忆相关的情绪。

They are coming through as they need you to realize they need you to really feel and process through the feelings associated with these memories.

所以，是的，看起来这是一个相当动荡的时期。

So, yeah, quite it's it seems like quite a disruptive time.

你昨晚告诉我的事情，确实和水星逆行的氛围很吻合。

And what you were telling me happened last night, it's kind of has really associated with this Mercury retrograde vibe.

是啊。

So Yeah.

嗯。

Yeah.

我基本上已经把昨晚发生的事告诉黛西了。

So I pretty much told Daisy what happened to me last night.

那我就从头开始解释吧。

So I'll just explain from the start.

对。

Yeah.

没错。

Yeah.

我看到一个女孩发的帖子。

I saw a post of a girl.

我曾经是一名国际航班乘务员，经常飞往新加坡。

So I used to be an international flight attendant that used to fly to Singapore.

我和这个女孩聊天是因为她发了一篇关于新加坡和一些糟糕经历的帖子。

I was talking to this girl because she put up a post regarding Singapore and some bad experiences.

我给她发消息说，因为她提到每次去新加坡后都会发生一些疯狂的事情。

And I messaged her and said that she because she was saying that every time she went to Singapore, something crazy would happen after.

现在我是说...旅行之后？

Now I After the trip?

是旅行之后还是之前。

After the trip or before.

哦，好吧。

Oh, okay.

不是。

No.

是的。

Yeah.

所以我们常去新加坡。

So we'd go to Singapore.

我不知道谁会对这种事感兴趣，但我真的、真的相信超自然现象，诸如此类的。

And I don't know who is into this kind of stuff, but I'm really, really I believe in supernatural, blah blah blah.

而我每次去新加坡都会哭。

And I would go to Singapore and always cry.

我在新加坡的每次旅行都会精神崩溃，这真的很奇怪，我始终无法理解。

I never had a Singapore trip where I wouldn't have a mental breakdown, in Singapore, which was really strange, and I could never understand it.

后来我的另一个朋友（不是发帖的那位）也分享了这些事，因为她经历了和我同样的遭遇，比如手机会突然响起来——什么？

And then one of my friends, a different friend from the one that posted, put up all these things because she had been having the same experiences that I had been having and saying things like her phone would start ringing What?

在凌晨三点钟，据说那是魔鬼出没的时刻。

In the middle of the night at 03:00 in the morning, which is like the devil's time apparently.

她做了很多研究，因为这事确实吓到她了，她不想再回去。

She did a lot of research because it was really scaring her, and she didn't wanna go back.

她深入研究后发现那家酒店建在坟场上。

And she did a lot of research and found that the hotel was on burial grounds.

发生了很多事。

A lot of stuff had been happened.

我还有另一个朋友曾在那家酒店试图自杀。

I had another friend who had tried to commit suicide in the hotel.

幸运的是，他现在没事了。

Luckily, he's okay.

哇。

Woah.

是啊。

So yep.

那就好。

That's fine.

不过确实。

But yeah.

所以我当时正在和这个女孩聊天。

So I was talking to this girl.

当时发生了很多状况。

There had been a lot of circumstances.

比如，在她发布了关于那家酒店的帖子后，我就觉得，好吧。

Like, after she had put up a post about the hotel, I was like, okay.

也许这能稍微解释一些事情。

Maybe that explains a little bit.

我看到那条消息后去旅行，到了新加坡就忘了这事，上床睡觉后开始做噩梦，梦里有人跟我说话。

The trip after I had seen that, I got to Singapore, forgot about it, went to bed, and then I started having nightmares and people talking to me in my dreams.

就像睡眠瘫痪症那样。

So like sleep paralysis.

我猛地坐了起来。

I shot up.

我在漆黑的房间里完全清醒，突然坐起身，喘不过气来，害怕极了。

I was dead awake in in my black dark room, and I shot up, and I was like out of breath, super scared.

突然，在我安静下来后——不是这个吵醒我的——但就在我安静下来三秒后，手机开始发出静电噪音。

And all of a sudden, after I'd shut up, the it wasn't this that woke me up, but I shut up and about three seconds later, my phone started making static noises.

什么鬼？

What the hell?

天啊，这也太吓人了。

Like like, oh my god.

所以也不是那些静电噪音把我吵醒的。

And so it wasn't the static noises that woke me up either.

哦，哇。

Oh, wow.

我突然惊醒，无法呼吸，浑身是汗，就像做噩梦时那样，然后我的手机开始发出噪音。

I shot up, couldn't breathe, like, was sweating, like, from the nightmares I'd been having, and my phone started making noises.

昨晚我和一个女孩聊起这些经历，我们聊得很深入。

And I was talking to this girl last night about these experiences I had, and then I got really deep with her.

先声明一下，接下来我们要讨论自残和自杀的话题。

And this is a trigger warning to anyone, obviously, sorry, we are going to be talking about self harm and suicide.

我告诉她，我不知道你是否也有这种经历，但我觉得有人在我耳边说话，试图让我自杀。

But I would have and I told her, and I was like, look, don't know if you experience this, but I felt like people were talking to me and try trying to tell me to kill myself.

所以我常去这家酒店，每次我都会在那里自残，因为我需要说服自己不要从酒店阳台跳下去。

So I would go to this hotel, and every time I'd be, like, hurting myself in this hotel because I like and I I would, like, have to talk myself out of like jumping off the hotel, like, balcony.

什么？

What?

而且她告诉我她也经历过完全相同的事情。

It was and she had told me that she had experienced the exact same stuff.

不。

No.

比如有人对她说话。

Like, people talking to her.

我当时说，我从未自残过。

And I was like, I've never self harmed.

我从未做过那种事。

I've never done anything like that.

但我会坐在那家酒店里抓挠自己的四肢。

But I would sit in that hotel and, like, scratch my limbs.

搞什么鬼，肖恩·雷？

What the fuck, Shon Ray?

我...我知道。

I I know.

所以我觉得这件事我不能告诉任何人，因为可能只是我的臆想。

So I felt like this was something that I couldn't tell anyone because I maybe it was just in my head.

是啊。

Yeah.

但因为她说过她不会抓伤自己，但会用头撞东西。

But because she had said that she wouldn't scratch herself, but she would, like, hit her head on stuff.

哇哦。

Woah.

是啊。

Yeah.

嗯。

Yeah.

是的。

Yeah.

所以我就想，我不想听起来像个疯子，但我感觉有人在跟我说话，而她说，我也有完全一样的感觉。

So and I was like, I don't wanna sound crazy, but I felt like people were talking to me, and she's like, I feel the exact same way.

有人在跟我说话。

Someone was talking to me.

有人就像，在你脑子里说话，我鸡皮疙瘩都起来了。

Someone was like, in your head, I've got goosebumps.

我鸡皮疙瘩都起来了。

I've got goosebumps.

而且你只有在那个酒店才会有这种感觉。

And you only like, you never felt that was only ever at that hotel.

只有在那个酒店才会这样。

Only ever at that hotel.

而且很多感情问题都是在那家酒店引发的。

And there was a lot of relationship issues that was caused at that hotel.

每次我去那家酒店，我和当时的伴侣都会吵架，她就说，是啊。

Every time I went to the hotel, me and, like, the partner at the time had fights, and she was like, yep.

我和我的伴侣也是这样。

Same with me and my partner.

所以那是一段非常痛苦的经历，就像昨晚那样，像你说的水星逆行期间，那样翻旧账真的影响了我。

So it was a very traumatic and, like, last night, that bringing up the past like that, as you said in the Mercury retrograde, bringing up the past like that really affected me.

我当时觉得，简直无法呼吸。

So I was thinking, like, I couldn't breathe.

我昨晚一直在经历恐慌发作。

I was having, like, panic attacks last night.

我喝了酒。

I drunk wine.

我不得不开车出去兜风。

I, like, had to go for a drive.

我全程都在哭。

I was crying the whole drive.

无法入睡。

Couldn't go to sleep.

不得不，呃，让自己冷静下来。

Like, had to, like, calm myself down.

我不得不抱着我的猫寻求安慰。

I had to cuddle my cat.

但是，是的，过去的事情被重新提起，这真的很可怕。

But, yeah, it was just the past being brought up, and that was scary.

听起来你应该按照提示去做，因为上面说无论这几天涌现出什么过往记忆，你都应该把它们和背后的情绪记录下来。

It sounds like you should do what it says because it says whatever past memories come up for you over these next few days, you should journal them down and the emotions behind them.

这就像在说这些记忆浮现是因为你需要处理它们。

And it's like says that they're coming through because you need to process it.

就好像这正是正在发生的事情。

And it's as if that's what is happening.

这些记忆涌现是因为你需要去处理它们，

Like, these memories are coming through because you need to just process them and,

比如，给它们一个了结。

like, have some closure about them.

对。

Yeah.

所以我觉得这是一次非常、非常创伤性的，对。

So I feel like this was a very, very traumatic Yeah.

经历。

Experience.

不是对我，而是对她。

Not for me, but for her.

而且，我现在就能给你列举出，比如，很多经历过这种事的人。

And, like, I can probably name you right now, like, a few, like, multitudes of people who have experienced this.

实际上我真的很想找个人聊聊这个，比如跟他们谈谈之类的。

And it I would actually really like to talk to someone about that, like, talk to them and blah blah blah.

但是，确实有几个工作人员因为这个原因拒绝去那里。

But, yeah, there's was a few crew that refused to go there because of this particular thing.

哇。

Wow.

所以我知道自己没疯。

So I know that I'm not crazy.

没有。

No.

因为遭遇这事的不止我一个。

Because it's not just me that's this has happened to.

但是，真的，你脑袋里确实有声音。

But, yeah, there were, like, literally voices in your head.

这家酒店绝对闹鬼。

This hotel is completely haunted.

就算被强迫我也绝不会再踏入这家酒店。

I will never go back to this hotel even if I was forced to.

但是，真的，你脑袋里确实有声音在和你说话。

But, yeah, there was, like, literally voices in your head talking to you.

搞什么鬼？

The fuck?

她...我听说了很多船员试图做一些，你知道的，类似自残之类的事情，等等等等。

And she I've had I've heard of many crew trying to do things that, you know, like, harm themselves, blah blah blah.

我曾经试图...我会抓伤自己的皮肤，然后像陷入恐慌的愤怒中坐着。

I tried to I would, like, scratch up my skin and, like, sit there in, like, a panicked rage.

她感觉自己愤怒得发狂。

And she felt like she was enraged.

我还有另一个朋友因为抑郁而拒绝再回到那里。

I've had another friend that refused to go back because she was, like, depressed.

我还有其他朋友也这样。

I've had other friends.

所以这非常可怕。

So it was very scary.

而且，当时你会觉得，我才不会...

And, like, at the time, you're like, I'm not

不会告诉任何人这件事。

gonna tell anyone this.

是啊。

Yeah.

因为你不想被人当成疯子。

Because you don't wanna come across as a crazy person.

对啊。

Yeah.

但你不想...你不想这么想，因为你会觉得可能只是我自己有问题。

But you don't wanna you don't wanna think but because you're like, maybe this is just me.

没错。

Yeah.

正是这样。

Exactly.

但我在其他酒店从没遇到过这种情况。

But this never happened to me at any other hotel.

是啊。

Yeah.

而且，我不记得了。

And, like, I don't remember.

你们在各国都团结一致，到处都是。

You were united in all different countries, like everywhere.

没错。

Yeah.

所以无论从心理上还是生理上，这都是个非常可怕的地方。

So this was a very scary place to be mentally, physically.

不过，这就是我的新加坡故事。

But, yeah, so that's my Singapore story.

天啊。

Oh my gosh.

听完这个我得喝杯酒压压惊。

I need a drink of wine after that.

天哪。

Far out.

太可怕了。

That's scary.

我起鸡皮疙瘩了。

I've got goosebumps.

是啊。

Yeah.

就像电话静电那种

And just like the phone static and

诡异的事情。

weird stuff.

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你知道，我们愿意接纳各种故事和经历。

You know, we we we are open to all stories and experiences.

确实有人联系我，因为我昨晚发了个关于超自然现象的帖子。

I did have some people actually because I put up a story last night about paranormal.

我很早就删掉了，因为觉得这内容对我冲击有点大。

I deleted it quite early because I was like, oh, this is, like, kind of, like, hitting me a little bit hard.

当时我心理状态明显不好，但有人说他们姐姐不得不请神父来家里进行驱魔。

Because at the time I was obviously not in a good mental headspace, but, there were some people saying that their sister had to have priests come to their house and get exercise.

不是锻炼（操练），是特么的驱魔（驱除）。

Not exercise fucking Ex exorcised.

对。

Yes.

没错。

Yeah.

这个词用得对吗

Is that the right word

嗯，对的。

for Yeah.

人们说电视和水壶会自己启动。

People were like TVs and kettles would turn on by themselves.

没插电。

Unplugged.

没插电。

Unplugged.

不可能。

No.

我知道。

I know.

靠。

Fuck.

哦。

Oh.

抱歉。

Excuse me.

毛骨悚然的感觉。

The heebie jeebies.

不。

No.

是的。

Yeah.

真的非常抱歉，各位。

So so sorry about that, everyone.

我知道开头没有放触发警告，但，是的，大概就是会发生这样的情况。

I know I didn't put the trigger warning in the start, but so, yeah, that's sort of what would happen.

我现在显然已经完全没事了。

I'm obviously all good now.

对。

Yes.

昨晚谈论那些事并全部倾诉出来对我而言是个很大的触发点，但也让我觉得自己并不是个彻头彻尾的疯子。

That last night was a very big trigger for me, talking about it and getting it all out, but also making me feel like I wasn't a complete crazy person either.

是啊。

Yeah.

一些自我安慰和

Some some self comfort and

是的。

Yes.

所以那很好，但也像是把过去的事情翻出来了。

So that was good, but it was also like bringing out the past.

我今天会把这件事记在日记里。

I will be journaling about this today.

所以，是的，

So, yeah,

如果你觉得此刻思绪有些模糊不清，或者感觉自己陷入了一种奇怪的心理状态，就把这些感受写下来，之后你可能会感觉好很多。

if you if you if you think that you might be having any foggy thoughts at the moment or lots of just feel like you're in a kind of stuck in a weird headspace, write it down and write down what you're feeling and, you know, you actually might feel a lot better afterwards.

听起来这确实是个不错的方法。

It sounds like it's a really good technique.

所以

So

是的

Yeah.

没错

Yeah.

对

Yeah.

又到了一年中的这个时候，写下你的情绪，向宇宙释放，写在那些该死的月桂叶上。

It's that time of the year, like, just write down your emotions, let it out to the universe, write it on some bloody bay leaves.

释放它。

Set it free.

释放它。

Set it free.

是的。

Yes.

说到写作、日记和书籍这类事情，正如你所知，我们过去几周的播客一直在读一本书，乔丹·B的《人生十二法则》。

Speaking of writing and journaling and books and everything like that, as you would know, we have been reading a book for the last couple weeks of our podcast, 12 Rules for Life by Jordan B.

彼得森。

Peterson.

没错。

Yep.

不过，我们已经读完了前三章，原计划是每周读三章。

However, so we have read the first three chapters and our plan was to read three chapters a week.

如果你听了我们上周的第二期节目《阴唇能量》，就能感受到我和肖恩德对这本书并不太感冒。

And if you listened to our second episode last week, Labia Lips Energy, you will have gotten the vibe that Shondre and I were not the biggest fans of his book.

不。

No.

我就说这么多。

That's all I have say.

简而言之，不喜欢。

Put it simply, no.

所以我们俩上周初就说好了，我们说，好的。

So we both said at the start of last week, we said, yep.

我们会读接下来的三章。

We'll read the next three chapters.

结果到了昨天，我对Shondre说，Shondre，我得说实话。

And came to yesterday, and I said to Shondre, I said, Shondre, I'll be honest.

我实在提不起劲去读那三章。

I couldn't bring myself to read the three chapters.

我也说了同样的话。

And I said the same thing.

Shondra说的完全一样。

Shondra said the exact same thing.

因为我不想撒谎。

Because I'm not gonna lie.

我不会继续读一本我既不认同也不喜欢的书。

I'm not going to continue reading a book that I don't necessarily support or like.

是啊。

Yeah.

我觉得这本书或许有教育意义，但我不想硬着头皮读完，让自己感觉自我价值被贬低。

I think it would be maybe educational, but I don't wanna sit through something and make myself feel like less worth than what I am.

没错。

Yeah.

这就是这本书给我的感受。

And that's what I feel like the book makes me feel.

对。

Yeah.

我同意。

I agree.

我们会另选一本新书。

We will be deciding on a new book.

我们不想继续读它了。

We don't wanna continue reading it.

我们不想继续讨论这个话题了。

We don't wanna continue speaking about it.

我们觉得已经说得够多了。

We just think that what we've said is enough.

是啊。

Yeah.

这本书给我们带来了负面情绪，何必强迫自己去读一本你根本不想拿起的书呢？

It just gave us like negative vibes and why should you force yourself to read a book that you don't wanna pick it pick up?

没错。

Exactly.

所以我们要选一本更鼓舞人心、更有趣、更积极向上的书。

So Like We're gonna pick a more uplifting, fun, positive book.

我们本来以为这本书会不错。

We thought that would be, though.

我们原以为它会很有启发性，内容也会很好。

We thought it would be really informative and really good,

不过确实。

but Yeah.

不。

No.

我有几本书可以推荐，嗯。

I have had a few book recommendations Mhmm.

都是关于女性赋权这类非常女权主义的书籍。

About very feminist women empowerment kind of books.

我觉得我们可能需要，

I feel like we might have to,

比如，把它们都写下来放进帽子里，然后随机抽一本。

like, write them all down and put them in a hat and, like, pick one out.

是的。

Yes.

好主意。

Good idea.

我们可以拍下来。

We can film it.

是啊。

Yeah.

那会很有趣。

That'd be funny.

对。

Yeah.

所以我们会做类似的事情，不过，关于那本书，不行。

So we'll do something like that, but, yeah, the book, no.

不行。

No.

黛西和德雷的书友会表示拒绝。

It's a it's a no from Daisy and Dre's book club.

不。

No.

真遗憾。

Too bad.

如果你一直在读这本书，很抱歉我们无法继续陪你读下去了。

If you have been reading it, we're sorry that we're not gonna continue reading it with you.

希望你能从中获得比我们更多的收获，或者如果你和我们感受相同，请留言告诉我们。

I hope that maybe you might be getting a bit more out of it than we are, or if you're feeling the same as us, message us, let us know.

我们真的很想

We're really interested to

了解其他读者的想法。

know what other people reading.

是的。

Yes.

我们很喜欢这个。

We love this.

爱

Love

在读，但这本书确实不对胃口。

reading, but this was just not it.

但我真的很想知道其他人对这本书的看法。

But I'm really interested to know what other people think about the book.

我知道我哥哥和我伴侣都读过这本书，他们都是30岁以下的男性。

I know my brother and my partner have all read it, and they're both men under the age of 30.

抱歉，杰，你已经超过30岁了，但也差不多啦。

Sorry, Jay, you're not under the age of 30, but you're close enough.

但我是说，我真的很想知道其他女性对这本书的看法。

But I mean, I don't want I really wanna know what other women think about the book.

如果你读过这本书，请给我们留言，我很想知道其他人是否和我们有同样的感受

So if you have read it, give us a message because I'm very intrigued to see that if other people feel the way that we

我确实有个女性朋友读过这本书，嗯对。

I do actually have a female friend that has, I think, read the books Oh, yeah.

就像丘罗太太那样，没错。

Missus Churro and be like Yes.

问问她。

Ask her.

好的。

Yeah.

没错。

Yeah.

不过我们换个话题吧。

But let's move on from that.

接下来几周我们会选本新书。

We'll choose a new book in the next coming weeks.

总之，我们一致否决这本书。

But, yeah, it's a no from us.

那我们来聊聊穷困潦倒这件事。

So let's talk about being broke.

好啊。

Yeah.

穷困海滩生活。

Broke beach life.

所以，我想说的是，我知道这可能很多女孩、女性、男性，每个人都能感同身受，尤其是去年，很多人失去了工作，我们也有很多大学生听众可能无法全职工作，还有靠JobKeeper补助的人，最近对一些人来说生活确实有点艰难。

So, I mean, I know this is probably a lot of girls can girls, women, men, everyone can relate to, especially this last year, lots of people lost their jobs, or we got lots of uni students around listening who might not be able to work full time, people on JobKeeper, and just life's been a bit of a struggle for some people lately.

成长过程中，你知道，你经历了青少年时期，经历了年轻时没赚多少钱的阶段，我们只是想聊聊应对这种情况的最佳方式和我们精打细算过穷日子的妙招。

And growing up, you know, you go through your teens, you go through your younger years of not earning much money, and like, we just wanna talk about the best ways to get around that and our savvy ways of doing broke bitch life.

是啊。

Yeah.

嗯，我我不确定你有没有过这种经历，但我记得有份工作领薪水的时候。

Well, I I don't know if you've ever but like, I remember being in a job, getting paid.

我当时住在一个名副其实的毒窝里。

I was living in a literal drug house.

没开玩笑。

Not even kidding.

我刚大学毕业。

I was just finished uni.

当时刚和男朋友分手。

Just broken up with my boyfriend at the time.

我知道你没在听，不过嘿。

I know you're not listening to this, but hey.

所以我当时真的住在一个毒品屋里，而且我们隔壁邻居就是真正的毒贩。

So I was living in a literal drug house, but our next door neighbors were actual drug dealers.

我爸来看我时，他害怕从我家染上梅毒。

I was my dad, he came and visited me, he was scared to syphilis from my house.

天啊。

Jeez.

情况很糟。

It was bad.

虽然很糟，但我很喜欢，因为那时候我超级随性。

It was so bad, but I loved it because I was, like, super just chill.

那是个派对屋吗？

Was it a party house?

就像，如果我给你看照片，你肯定会吓到。

It was, like, if I showed you pictures, you would actually be scared.

看起来就像，我都没法跟你形容，但真的很糟糕。

It looked like like, I can't even explain to you, but it was bad.

不过房租很便宜。

So but it was cheap.

而且我当时工资只有9美元。

So and I but I only got paid 9 okay.

所以我每两周能拿到900美元。嗯。

So I got paid $900 a fortnight Mhmm.

从这份

From this

工作。

job.

嗯。

Mhmm.

这是城里的一栋房子。

And this was a house in the city.

哦。

Oh.

所以想象一下有多糟糕。

So imagine how bad it was.

哦，是啊。

Oh, yeah.

价格很便宜。

For cheap.

是的。

Yes.

嗯。

Mhmm.

但我和我朋友在那房子里有过最美好的回忆。

But we had the best memories in that house, me and my friend.

我和我最好的朋友Shanice，想念你爱你，但我们在那栋房子里的回忆，那时我们都才18岁。嗯。

So I my best friend Shanice, miss you and love you, but the memories that we have in this house, we were both 18 Mhmm.

而且我们俩都刚经历分手。

And both had just gone through breakups.

所以我和她会整个周末都来我家，从周一到周日都在喝酒，我们只用大概15美元就能搞定一切。

So me and her would she would come to my house for the whole weekend, and we would drink Monday to Monday to Sunday, and we would do that all with, like, $15.

那太棒了。

That's the best.

整整一周？

The whole week?

是的。

Yep.

15美元。

$15.

包括食物等等所有东西。

Like, with food and everything.

就像这样

Like How

你们是怎么做到的？

how did you manage that?

我们会...好吧

We would okay.

这听起来真的很糟糕

This sounds really bad.

对可能有或曾有饮食失调倾向的人触发警告

And trigger warning to anyone who, like, had or has eating disorder tendencies.

我只是想事先说明一下

I just want to put this out there.

这可能会触发你

This will trigger you.

请不要继续听下去

Please don't don't continue listening.

我们会买苏打饼干和金枪鱼罐头，每天就吃这些，这样才能省下钱买酒喝。

But we would buy water crackers and cans of tuna, and that's where we would eat, like, once a day so that we can, like, afford to buy alcohol.

这太糟糕了。

That's terrible.

是啊。

Yeah.

但我们当时实在太抑郁了，刚刚经历分手。

But we were just so depressed and so, like, just we'd just gone through breakups.

我们俩都很抑郁。

We were both depressed.

我们只想喝酒。

All we wanted to do was drink.

所以我们每天就只吃那些金枪鱼罐头。

So we would, like, just eat that cans of tuna.

我记得我一个月瘦了18公斤。

I lost, I think, 18 kgs in a month.

哇。

Wow.

我们绝不建议任何听众效仿。

We do not recommend this to anyone listening.

不。

No.

不。

No.

不。

No.

那段时间我的心理状态真的非常非常糟糕。

This was a really, really bad, like, place in my head mentally.

我已经把那些体重都涨回来了。

I've, like, picked up all that weight again.

我比以往任何时候都更爱自己，尽管体型是当时的两倍。

Love myself more than I've ever loved myself, and I I'm, like, double the size that I was.

不过是啊。

But yeah.

所以真的很糟糕。

So it was really, really bad.

而且是啊。

And yeah.

所以现在我们只想讨论更健康的方式

So now we just wanna maybe talk about healthier ways

去做事。

to do things.

确实。

Definitely.

更健康地外出生活的方式，但我们那时充满恐惧。

Healthier ways to go out and live your life and But we were fear.

18岁的年轻人。

Young 18 year olds.

你知道吗？

You know?

而且

And

我记得我18岁或者17岁出去玩的时候，那时候可真是美好时光。

I remember when I was 18 or I was going out when I was 17, and it was so good back in the day.

你知道，以前在阿德莱德和阿德莱德山区，我们会坐公交车去市区，大概要四十分钟车程。

You know, you'd go out and over back in Adelaide and Adelaide Hills, you'd catch the bus down to the to the city, which was like a forty minute bus.

所以大家都会偷偷在公交车上喝酒，这样就不用担心喝酒前的准备工作了。

And so you'd all, like, sneak on your drinks on the bus, and so you wouldn't have to worry about drink pre drinks.

不过话说回来，喝酒前的准备本来就很便宜。

Well, too on pre drinks are cheap anyway.

但你坐公交车去，那大概要多少钱？

But you get the bus down, so that's like what?

4美元？

$4?

完美。

Perfect.

我带着50澳元现金出门，回来时兜里还能剩45澳元，我发誓。

I'd take $50 cash, and I would come back with, like, $45, I swear.

坐巴士进城，我们都喜欢那种小包装的果汁——不是果汁，是商店里卖的酸奶袋装饮料？

Get the bus down, and we'd all like you know those little juice not juice pouches, yogurt pouches you can get from the shops?

滚开。

Fuck off.

是啊。

Yeah.

就是那种小酸奶袋，你得把酸奶吸出来那种。

The little yogurt pouches that you, like, suck the yogurt out of it.

所以我们不放酸奶，而是直接把伏特加过滤后灌进那些小酸奶袋里。

So instead of yogurt in there, we would literally just get, like, filter through straight vodka into the little yogurt pouches.

因为它们特别软，你就直接塞进胸衣里。

And because they're so squidgy, you just, like, put them in your boobs.

你把它们塞进胸罩里，在胸罩里挤来挤去，然后我们就直接走进去...你之前怎么从来没告诉过我这事？

You put them in your bra, squid them in your bra, and then we just, walk on into Why have you never told me that?

对不起。

I'm sorry.

搞什么鬼？

What the hell?

这本来能帮我省下好多出去玩的钱。

This could have saved me so much money going out.

我经常这么干，尤其是

I did this all the time for especially.

音乐节的时候，我们经常这么干

Festivals, we did it all the time.

那感觉简直太棒了

And it was the best.

然后你就进去点杯苏打水或可乐什么的饮料

So you'd go in and you'd ask for a soda water or a Coke or or something to drink.

然后，没错，你会带些小瓶伏特加倒进去。

And, yeah, you'd have your shots of little vodka to squirt into it.

那感觉太棒了。

It was the best.

你知道吗，我和Lauren（如果你在听的话），我们以前会带那种小瓶子装满伏特加混进夜店，那时候我和Lauren穷得叮当响。

Do you know that me and Lauren, if you're listening, we used to take in, like, tiny little bottles and fill them with vodka to, like, clubs when we me and Lauren were broke.

因为刚当空乘的时候基本工资很低，根本不够花。

Because, obviously, when you started as a flight attendant, you're on base wage, which isn't a lot.

所以我们出去玩就带小酒瓶，花2美元点杯苏打水，再偷偷兑上伏特加。

So we would go out and, like, do the little bottles, and we'd order, like, a glass of soda water and pay, like, $2 for it and then fill it up with vodka.

这招绝了。

That's the best.

是啊。

Yeah.

你们是怎么偷偷带进去的？就藏在...

And you just, what, snuck them in in, like,

跟他们说

talked to them.

到处偷偷带进去

Snuck them in everywhere.

是啊

Yeah.

挺好玩的

It was fun.

我不

I don't

知道你有没有来过

know if you came.

我从来没这么干过

I never did that.

搞什么

What the

天啊。

Oh my god.

是啊。

Yeah.

我们会偷偷带进几瓶葡萄酒、伏特加，然后去洗手间说，好吧。

We would like sneak in bottles of wine, vodka, and we'd go to the bathroom and be like, okay.

把这瓶伏特加干了。

Skull this bottle of vodka.

我们本来会

We'd be

比如，是的。

like, yes.

晚上玩得开心。

Good night out.

晚上好，但作为女性来说确实会稍微容易些。是的。

But in saying that, it is being a female, it is a little bit easier Yeah.

比起男性出门不喝酒，你知道的。

Than for men to go out and to not drink, you know.

我们只需要对酒吧里的男生友善一点，或者抛个媚眼，他们就会请我们喝酒，这真的很糟糕。

All we have to do is be nice to a guy at the bar or, you know, make the eyes and they will buy us a drink and it's really bad.

显然我现在不这么做了，我有个很好的伴侣，而且很久没这样了，但作为女生以前确实很容易。我挺同情男生的，他们总要在夜店花那么多钱。

Like I don't do it anymore obviously, I have a beautiful partner and I haven't done it for a long time but it used to be quite easy as girls and I feel sorry for guys because they just end up spending so much money on nights out.

看，我这样做感觉挺不好的，但好吧。

See I I feel bad doing but okay.

那一次

The one time

我没那么做，这又是关于劳伦的事。

that I didn't, and this is another ode to Lauren.

劳伦特别擅长这种事。

Lauren is so good at doing that.

别跟男生搭讪。

Don't Chatting to boys.

我没想到她能让老太太给你买任何你想要的东西。

I not she could, like, get an old woman to buy you whatever you want.

她就是有这种天赋。

She's just got the gift.

她天生能说会道。

She's got the gift of the gab.

是啊。

Yeah.

那是最棒的。

That's the best.

绝对没错。

Absolutely.

每次我出去

Like, every time I went out

和劳伦一起时，我们银行账户里一分钱都没有，我就会说今晚我们要喝个痛快。

with Lauren, we would have $0 in our bank account, and I'd be like, we're gonna get fucked up tonight.

不知怎么的，她总能给我们安排辆车过去，那女孩还能搞定入场费。

Like, for somehow, she would like organize us a ride there, a ride Like, that girl, she would like organize entry fees.

她会朝保安抛个眼神，对方就会说'姑娘们，进来吧'。

She'd like look at the like bouncer, and he'd be like, yeah, girls, come in.

我当时就懵了，你到底是什么人？

And I'm like, what the fuck are you?

你究竟是谁啊？

Like, who are you?

你是个魔术师吧。

You magician.

没错。

Yes.

这简直太棒了。

That's that's the best.

你完全掌握了能说会道的天赋。

You full on had the gift of the gab.