第333集：AVN周特别节目！

你以为我他妈每天不都在面对这种事吗？

You think I don't fucking deal with that every day?

是啊。

Yeah.

我确信很多人都要面对这种情况。

I'm sure a lot of people deal with that.

不过确实。

But Yeah.

当你还需要自我描述来推销产品时，这种感受就真的让人崩溃了。

When you couple that with, like, needing to be able to describe yourself, to be able to sell your product, that's when it's a mind fuck.

听着，我提前说声抱歉。

Well, let me tell you this and and, you know, sorry in advance.

你身材练得越好，肌肉线条越明显，这种心理挣扎反而会越严重。

The more fit you become, the more athletic and in shape you get, the worst this gets.

所以，你懂的

So, you know

我是说，我认为这是一段旅程，因为你可以做很多工作，而我确实在努力尝试。

mean, I think it's journey because there's a lot of work that you can do on it, and I am genuinely trying.

比如，我关注了一个人，我绝对喜欢她的作品。

Like, there's there's this person that I follow that I absolutely love her work.

她谈到，就像，只是赤裸地站在镜子前。

And she talks about, like, just standing in front of the mirror naked.

哦，是的。

Oh, yeah.

就是赤裸地站在那里，接受一切本来的样子。

Just standing there naked and just accepting everything as it is.

明白有些事情你可能想要改变。

Understanding that, like, there may be things you want to change.

可能有些改进你想做，但归根结底，要真正审视自己。

There may be improvements that you want to make, but at the end of the day, like truly looking at yourself.

我开始这么做了，但我还没完全做到。

And I started doing that and I've I'm not there yet.

我表弟

My cousin

因为我站在那里，赤身裸体地看着自己，心里想着，我不确定

Because I stand there, I look at myself naked and I'm like, I don't know about

这些

all this.

我表弟，你知道的，他八九十年代是职业健美运动员

My cousin, obviously, as you know, who was a professional bodybuilder in the eighties and nineties.

回溯到八十年代，虽然他没什么智慧箴，算不上聪明人，但他会告诉那些说‘哦，我身材还行’或‘我对自己现状满意’的人

Back in the eighties, while he has he had very few pearls of wisdom to share, not the brightest bulb on the tree, he would tell guys who would say, you know, oh, I'm fit around this or I'm that, or I'm comfortable where I am, or I'm happy with where I am.

他总对他们说：赤身裸体站在全身镜前，然后深蹲

He would tell them all the time, stand in front of a full length mirror, naked, and squat.

好好看看自己，然后告诉我你真的满意你看到的

Take a look at yourself, tell me you're happy with what you see.

这就是他判断自己是否满意的方式

That's how he would like, that's how he determined whether he was happy with what he saw or not.

你知道，就像那种极端到变态的玩意儿。

You know, it's like that kind of fucking extreme shit.

听着，身体畸形恐惧症是真实存在的。

Just what listen, body dysmorphia is a real thing.

你越努力，情况他妈的就变得越糟。

The more you work at it, the worse it fucking gets.

你对自己就越苛刻。

The harder you are on yourself.

懂吗？

You know?

那真他妈是个难以忍受的心理状态。

It's really a fucking difficult place to live.

所以我才总是告诉人们，也许你的目标不该是盲目追求身体自信。

Well, and that's why I've always tell told people like, your maybe your goal shouldn't be body positivity.

那听起来很美好。

That sounds great.

这真是个有趣的流行词。

That's a really fun buzz phrase to use.

而且听起来很棒。

And it sounds really good.

想到'我要努力爱上身体的每一寸'，这会让每个人都感觉良好。

And it makes everyone feel good to think, oh, I'm going to work towards loving every inch of my body.

我一直主张，我不想追求身体积极性。

I've always argued, I don't want to be body positive.

我想要达到身体中立的状态。

I want to be body neutral.

我希望达到这样一种境界：我的身体是实现许多目标的载体。

I want to get to the point where it's like, my body is a vehicle for many things.

我的身体是有用的。

My body is useful.

我的身体是强壮的。

My body is strong.

此刻是我一生中最强壮的时期。

I'm the strongest right now I've ever been in my entire life.

是啊。

Yeah.

但我是否深爱身体的每一寸肌肤呢？

But do I love every single inch of my body?

并不。

No.

对我个人而言，这可能不是个现实的目标。

That's probably not a realistic goal for me personally.

如果这对你可行，那很棒。

If it is for you, that's great.

我为你喝彩。

I celebrate that.

我真心为你感到高兴。

I love that for you.

我觉得这不适合我。

I don't think it's a thing for me.

不。

No.

对大多数人来说确实不适合。

It's it's not for most people.

那是极少数，你说的那种感受只有很小比例的人会有。

For very that's a mean, you're talking about a very small percentage of people who are who feel that way.

是啊。

Yeah.

但这很有趣，因为它确实引出了一个有趣的观点。

But it's interesting because it does bring up an interesting point.

你知道，在这种生活方式中，我坚信那意义不大。

You know, where in the lifestyle, I I firmly believe that that means very little.

当谈到身体成分时，你知道，如果你想把它评定或定义为这种生活方式中的成功，那意义不大。

When it come know, body composition means very little in terms of, you know, if you wanna rate it as or or define it as success in the lifestyle.

随便吧。

Whatever.

这真的不是什么大事。

It's just not a big deal.

嗯，我认为这其中有个临界点。

Well, I think that there's a tipping point with it.

对。

Right.

就是那种，好吧。

Where it's like, okay.

你是女性平均水平。

You're Woman's average.

是啊。

Yeah.

你穿十码。

You're a size ten.

你穿6码。

You're a size six.

你穿4码。

You're a size four.

在这种生活方式中，人们其实不太关注这些。

Like, people don't really pay attention to that in the lifestyle.

他们只是看你一眼，然后决定是否被你吸引。

They just look at you and decide whether they're attracted to you or not.

嗯，说到底就是这样。

Well, that's really all it is.

但我很喜欢这点。

But Which I love.

对某些人来说，我并不是...这不是对这种生活方式的批评。

For some I'm I'm not this is not a criticism of the lifestyle.

我觉得这很棒。

I think that's amazing.

在我看来，这是这种生活方式为数不多的美妙之处之一，真的不存在。

It's one of the few awesome parts of the lifestyle, in my opinion, is that there really isn't.

我觉得这不公平。

I don't think that's fair.

我就这么认为。

That's I do.

好吧。

Okay.

实话这东西就是其中之一。

That's just one of those things that, like, I think really

我认为这种生活方式中有很多积极因素，而你我喜欢关注消极面。

I think there's a lot of positivity in the lifestyle, you and I like to focus on the negative.

并不是说我不喜欢。

And it's not that I like too.

这他妈太明显了。

It's just so fucking glaring.

这简直无法忽视。

It's impossible to ignore it.

但我确实。

But I yeah.

我不认为普通人会在意。

I don't think that the average person even cares.

反之亦然。

And and vice versa.

我觉得大家都以为我有非常特定的类型，比如'布伦娜只对六块腹肌的人感兴趣'

I think everyone thinks that I have this very, very specific type where it's like, oh, Brenna's only interested in people with a six pack and

才不是这样

Not true

完全不是。

at all.

六块腹肌这个那个的。

Six six and this and that.

但其实我和各种类型的男人都交往过。

And it's like, I've been with so many different types of guys.

我也曾被各种类型的男人吸引过。

I've been attracted to so many different types of guys.

再说一次，我根本不在乎别人怎么描述他们的身材。

And again, I literally could care less about how somebody else describes their body.

只要他们够辣，那就是够辣。

If they're hot, they're hot.

是啊。

Yeah.

我是说，每个人都有自己的看法。

I mean, everyone's got their own opinion.

对吧？

Right?

我的意思是，观点各异是有原因的。

I mean, opinions vary for a reason.

但说到成人内容领域，那就是另一回事了。

But when it comes to the adult content space, that's a very different thing.

那些特征、那些定义很重要。

Those characteristics, those definitions matter.

是啊。

Yeah.

就是很重要。

They just do.

因为就像你说的，你不能随便写个'红发女郎与男人上床'就完事了。

Because you can't like you said, you can't just put on there, you know, redhead fucks dude.

那样行不通的。

Like, that's not gonna work.

你懂我意思吗？

Like, you need you know what I'm saying?

你得描述得更详细些。

Like, you gotta have a little bit more detail.

干得好。

Good job.

卖了两份那个。

Sold two copies of that.

是啊。

Yeah.

没错。

Yeah.

为了吸引注意，你懂的。

To get the attention, you know.

所以从那个角度来看，这绝对很重要。

So those though from that perspective, it it absolutely matters.

所以这实际上就是我的意思——你得等一阵子，看看事情如何发展，才能决定你想如何给自己分类。

So that's really, I think, what what I mean by you're gonna have to wait a little while to kinda see where where everything falls into place to determine what you wanna how you wanna categorize yourself.

嗯，与此同时，这种不确定的状态很诡异，正因如此，内容创作对我来说很困难。

Well, in the meantime, it's a very weird flux to be in, and this the content house was hard for me as a result of that.

确实如此。

It really was.

是啊。

Yeah.

妈的

No fuck

和你。

with you.

这和其他任何人都毫无关系。

It had absolutely nothing to do with anyone else.

完全是我自己的问题。

Had everything to do with me.

我是说，和我一起拍摄的1.1个家伙，像是把我抱起来，带着我到处走。

I mean, was 1.1 of the guys I shot with, like, picked me up and was, like, carrying me around.

我当时就说，放我下来。

I was, put me down.

我太重了，不适合这样。

I'm too heavy for that.

他是，你太娇小了。

He's, you're tiny.

是啊。

Yeah.

而且我，你现在意识到自己有多小了吧。

And I'm, you realize how small you are now.

我不清楚自己身体看起来是什么样子。

I don't I have no concept of what my body looks like.

这就是问题所在。

That's the problem.

我完全没有概念。

I have no concept.

嗯，因为你习惯了以特定方式看待自己，当然，你会在脑海中构建自己的形象，我们都这样，想象自己是什么样子。

Well, because you're used to seeing yourself a particular way, and of course, you're you conjure up this own image in your mind, we all do it, of what you look like.

现在一切都发生了翻天覆地的变化，你一时难以接受这个事实。

So now that that is so drastically all has been altered, you just you can't wrap your head around it.

但你还没意识到自己有多瘦小。

But you don't realize how small you are.

另外我发现我穿的衣服越来越宽松了。

Well, other thing is I have found myself wearing baggier and baggier clothes.

你注意到了吗？

Have you noticed that?

是啊。

Yeah.

首先，你穿的那些衣服早就不合身了。

Well, first of all, you're putting stuff on that just doesn't fit you anymore.

而且你还没完全接受自己已经穿不了那个尺码的事实。

And you're also not fully embracing the idea that you don't wear that size anymore.

这就是问题所在。

That's what's happening.

这是一部分原因，但我还有另一种感觉，就是我对自己的身体感到如此困惑，以至于我根本不想去思考它。

That's part of it, but there's this other part of me that's like, I'm so confused by my own body that I just don't even wanna have to think about it.

所以我能看到的越少越好。

So the less of it I see, the better.

嗯，还有一种情况是，你会到达一个阶段，就是不愿意接受事情正在好转的事实。

Well, there's also this what happens is you get to a point where you don't really want to accept the fact that things are improving.

就好像这件事伴随着一种负罪感。

It's like there's a guilt associated with it.

而且你甚至不愿意去渴望这种改变。

And and you don't want to want it.

你明白我的意思吗？

And you know what I mean?

这里有微妙的界限：一方面因为外表和感受不同而想用新方式表达自我，

There's a thing that there's a fine line between wanting to express yourself in a different way because you look and feel different.

另一方面又觉得'我还没资格，还没赢得这种改变的权利'。

And there's also this thing where it's like, I don't I haven't deserved I haven't earned that yet.

我不想那样做。

I don't wanna do that.

我是说，我就这样生活着

I mean, I live with it

每一天。

every day.

这更像是一种身份认同危机，因为就像当我体重接近两百磅时，非常

It's more of an identity crisis than anything else because it's like when I was, you know, pushing two hundred pounds and was very

顺便说一句，你说这个的时候，我完全没概念。

Which by the way, when you say, I don't even register that.

是啊。

Yeah.

因为我压根没往那方面想过。

Because it never really occurred to me.

嗯，那是另一回事了。

Well, that's the other part.

这是个关注点。

That's a point of focus.

每次我告诉别人我差点两百磅时，他们都会说，什么？

Every time I tell people I was almost two hundred pounds, they're like, what?

你在说什么啊？

What are you talking about?

是啊。

Yeah.

对我来说真的很难理解，就像我看到我们的照片时——手机里偶尔会跳出来之类的。

It's it's impossible for me to to really, like I just I see pictures of us, obviously, because it'll come up on my phone or whatever.

而你的脸，很明显看起来完全不一样了。

And you in your face, obviously, you look very different.

但我很难在脑海里形成这个概念。

But it's very difficult for me to wrap my head around that idea.

我从未那样看待过你。

I just never saw you that way.

所以并不是说我没有你那么惊讶，我想，因为我经常见到你，而且这也不是一个直接摆在眼前的事情。

So it wasn't like I'm less surprised by it than you are, I think, because I see you all the time, and it isn't it's not like a it isn't an in my face thing.

现在，比如当我们去给你买衣服的时候，虽然我们不常买，但当我们去的时候，当你试穿衣服时，我才突然意识到你的体重变化有多大，你的体型现在有多么不同，从你穿的衣服、合身程度和上身效果就能看出来。

Now, when you when you like when we go shopping for you, right, which we don't do a lot, but when we do, and then it's like when you're trying on clothes, then it dawns on me how much weight, how much differently, you know, how different your body, you know, composition is now because of the clothes you're wearing, and how they fit on you, and how they look on you.

然后我就明白了，哦，通过衣服我能看出来了。

And it's like, okay, now with clothing I can see it.

对吧？

Right?

这很合理。

It makes sense.

但有时候，对我来说真的很难去理解和完全接受。

But it's tough for me to see sometimes and to really absorb.

是啊。

Yeah.

好吧，欢迎加入这个该死的俱乐部。

Well, welcome to the fucking club.

是啊。

Yeah.

这感觉很奇怪。

It's weird.

我觉得对我来说，这是个身份认同问题。以前我体型较大时，我知道自己是个丰满的女人。

I mean, I think for me, it's a it's it's an identity thing in that I knew when I was bigger, like, I'm I'm a thick woman.

这就是真实的我。

This is who I am.

某种程度上我对此很自信，因为我知道如何描述自己。

And there was some level of confidence in that because I knew how to describe myself.

而且我知道如果有人主动联系，我会把这点写进个人简介里。

And I knew that if somebody was reaching out, like, would put it in bios.

我会说

I'd be like

没错。

Yeah.

丰满的，你知道的，红发大屁股。

Thick, you know, big booty redhead.

如果你不喜欢丰满女性，那我就不合你口味了。

If you're not into thick women, I'm not gonna be your cup of tea.

你当时是被引导的吗？

Were you steered in?

所以我知道如果有人联系我，那他们就是真心想要个丰腴的女人。

So I knew that if people were reaching out to me, it's because they really wanted a thick woman.

他们想要这个翘臀。

They wanted the booty.

他们想要这双大腿。

They wanted the thighs.

他们能接受我没有平坦的小腹。

They were okay that I didn't have a flat stomach.

没错。

Right.

而现在处于一种奇怪的波动状态，我不知道别人怎么看待我的身体。

And now it's this weird flux of, I don't know how other people think of my body.

我也不确定自己是否总是对它持积极看法。

And I'm not sure that I always think positively of it.

因为我们还没真正谈到的另一点是——我相信很多身处这种生活方式中的人，尤其是女性，都会对此深有感触。

Because the other thing that we haven't really talked about yet, but I'm sure a lot of people that are in the lifestyle, especially women in the lifestyle can relate to this.

我并没有被吸引。

I am not attracted.

这并不羞耻。

This is not a shame.

并不是在贬低任何人的体型。

Is not a not saying anything against a body anyone else's body type.

这只是我个人的偏好。

This is simply my personal preference.

我对瘦弱的女性不感兴趣。

I'm not into thin women.

我实在想不起来，有哪一次在房间里远远看到一位瘦削女性时，会让我产生'哇'的冲动。

I have, I can't think of a single time where I've seen a thin woman from across a room and been like, wow.

我从未对那样的女性产生过'好想品尝她的私处'的欲望。

That is a woman whose pussy I wanna eat.

这种情况根本不会发生。

That just doesn't happen.

当然我能欣赏那种美吗？

Now I can I can appreciate the beauty?

我能欣赏那种健身成果。

I can appreciate the fitness level.

没错。

Right.

我可能会觉得'哇'。

I can be wow.

那显然是个对自己要求严格的女性。

That's a woman who clearly works hard on herself.

那太棒了。

That's amazing.

但我对瘦弱的女性没有性吸引力。

But I am not sexually attracted to thin women.

我得看到一些臀部和腿部才会觉得，哦，对，那是我想要发生关系的人。

I have to have some booty and thighs for me to be like, oh, yeah, that is somebody I want to be sexual with.

是啊。

Yeah.

再次强调，你知道，有些人我确实欣赏并尊重他们为达到那种健身水平所付出的努力，以及不同的方面。

Again, you know, there are certain types of people that I certainly do appreciate and respect the work that goes into getting to that level of fitness and, you know, different things.

但听着。

But there listen.

我们都有偏好，我认为某人是否有吸引力其实并不重要。

We all have preferences, and it doesn't really matter whether I think something, you know, or someone is or isn't attractive.

那他妈有什么关系？

What the fuck does that matter?

谁在乎我怎么想？

Who gives a shit what I think?

我只是在某些人身上寻找或欣赏特定的特质，这很正常。

There's just certain things that I look for or enjoy in certain people, and that's okay.

懂吗？

You know?

而且我认为你会发现，现在会有完全不同的一群人主动联系你，这是以前没有的。

And you're and I think what you're gonna find now, you're there's gonna be a different a whole different crop of people reaching out to you that didn't before.

你必须问自己的问题是

And the question you have to ask yourself is

我能接受这样吗？

Am I okay with that?

我这样对吗？

Am I right with that?

因为六个月前你根本不会正眼看我

Because you didn't you wouldn't have given me the time of day, six months ago.

现在你突然就来巴结我了。

Now all of a sudden, you're sniffing up my ass.

那么，这是否意味着你必须对某人怀恨在心呢？

Now, is that something that you have to hold against somebody?

嗯，我也不知道。

Well I don't know.

再说一次，这正是色情行业与生活方式圈子的本质区别所在。

And again, that's where it's very very different from the porn world versus the lifestyle world.

没错。

Yeah.

因为我直接接触过一些创作者。

Because I've straight up had creators.

在这次AVN期间与我共事过的人

People that I worked with during this AVN

是的。

Yep.

有人主动联系我说，既然你现在是这样的状态，我很想和你合作拍摄。

That reached out and were like, now that you are the way that you are, I'd love to shoot with you.

一开始我的反应是：你说什么？

And at first I was like, excuse me?

这也太粗鲁了吧？

How rude?

然后你真的需要退一步想想，不，不是这样的。

And and then you really have to take a step back and go, nope.

这是生意。

This is business.

这是关于赚钱的事。

This is about making money.

既然我现在是个更娇小的女性，要帮他们卖得更好，我就得接受这点。

And if I'm going to sell better for them now that I am a smaller woman, I have to be okay with that.

因为这并非私人恩怨。

Because it's not personal.

这是生意。

It's business.

不。

No.

这再次体现了成人内容领域与生活方式领域的区别。

And that's the difference between, again, the adult content space and the lifestyle space.

但如果有人联系我说'哦，现在布伦娜体重不到两百磅了，我有兴趣和她上床'。

But if somebody reached out to me and said, oh, now that Brenna doesn't weigh almost two hundred pounds, I would be interested in fucking her.

我现在没兴趣了。

I'm no longer interested.

说实话我从没听人这么说过。

Now I don't think a life's I've never had anyone say that.

我觉得没人会蠢到这种程度。

I doubt anyone would be that stupid.

不过过去确实有人让我大吃一惊。

Although people have certainly surprised me in the past.

我对人类的愚蠢从不感到惊讶。

I'm never shocked by the stupidity of human beings.

它

It

是有可能发生的。

could happen.

但确实，我在生活方式领域和色情行业的感受会截然不同。

But yeah, I I would feel very differently about it in the lifestyle than I do in the porn world.

是啊。

Yeah.

不。

No.

这里面肯定有些感受会有所变化。

There's definitely some feelings that are gonna that are gonna vary in there.

但同时，我也会说，确实如此。

But at the same time, I would say, yeah.

我明白。

I get it.

感觉确实不一样。

It feels different.

但我们刚才也指出了，个人偏好是存在的。

But we just pointed out, there are preferences.

我们都有自己的偏好，这很正常。

We have preferences, and that's okay.

如果那是你的偏好，我能理解。

And if that's your preference, I understand it.

但这不意味着我必须认同。

Doesn't mean I gotta get on board.

我能理解，但这让我感觉不好。

I understand it, but it doesn't make me feel good.

而这也应该没问题。

And that should be okay too.

好吧，行吧。

Well, okay.

所以我想这也取决于在减肥之前是否有过互动，让人觉得那个人没兴趣。

So I guess it also depends on if there was interaction prior to the weight loss or not that made it seem like that person was not interested.

比如说，我们有个成员已经很久没来参加了。

Like, for example, we have a guy and he hasn't been coming in a while.

他在群里一直不怎么活跃。

He's not been active within the group.

但有一段时间，他参加了我们在拉斯维加斯这里举办的每一场周四派对。

But for a while there, he was coming to every single one of our Thursday parties here in Vegas.

没错。

Right.

有一次我觉得他非常迷人。

And there was one instance where I found him very attractive.

再说一次，这还是在他减肥之前的事。

And again, this was before the weight loss.

我走过去和他搭话，他看起来似乎对我有点兴趣。

And I went up and started talking to him and he kinda seemed like he was interested.

但聊到一半，他居然话说到一半就走开去和另一个女人调情了。

But then, like, halfway through a conversation, he literally just, like, walks off mid sentence to go flirt with another woman.

对。

Right.

然后他基本上告诉一个共同的朋友说，'布伦娜人不错，但我通常不喜欢她这个体型的女人。'

And then basically told a mutual friend, yeah, you know, Brenna's cool, but I'm not usually into women her size.

对吧。

Right.

这件事让我很困扰，因为明明是你先跟我调情，表现得好像对我有意思。

And I was bothered by it because it's like, well, you were flirting with me and you're making it seem like you were interested.

为什么要这样？

Why would you do that?

当然，当你喜欢的人对你没感觉时，不可能不受伤。

And of course, hurts your it it cannot possibly not hurt your feelings when somebody is not attracted to you that you're attracted to.

是啊。

Yeah.

因为你基本上是在说，在没有更好的选择时，好吧。

Because what you're basically saying is, in the absence of anything better Yeah.

我就凑合着选你。

I'll come come grab me.

没错。

Exactly.

当时感觉就像，

It was like,

对。

yes.

这样不行。

Not okay.

我的意思是，我想要女人，所以如果今晚只能得到这个女人，那也行。

I mean, I want pussy, so if this is the pussy I can have tonight, great.

这让我感觉不太好。

It just does not make me feel very good.

不。

No.

当然不。

Of course not.

如果那个人现在又出现，像条狗一样在我屁股后面嗅来嗅去想玩什么把戏。

If that person came back around now and was like sniffing up my ass trying to play Yeah.

我绝对不可能考虑那种事。

There's no way in hell I would entertain that idea.

这就是为什么我说过，而且我坚持这个观点：除非你100%明确对我感兴趣——不是对随便什么人，不只是为了上床，不只是想找根老二——如果你真心对我感兴趣，那很好。

That's why I have said, and I stand by it, if you are not 100% clearly interested in me, not anyone in general, not just to get laid, not just looking for a a fucking second cock, if you are genuinely interested in me, great.

如果不是，或者我感觉你不是真心的，那我就没兴趣。

If you are not, or I get the impression that you're not, I'm not interested.

我们刚共进晚餐的那对朋友，我有机会和她玩过，后来他，我们俩一起和她玩过，超棒的夫妻，真是世界上最可爱的人。

Our friends that we just had dinner with and I had a chance to play with her, and then he, we both played with her together, amazing couple, fucking sweetest people ever.

而且他们表达得很明确，她非常清楚地表明她对我很感兴趣。

And they make it very clear, she makes it very clear that she is very much interested in me.

是的。

Yeah.

这就是区别所在。

That's the difference.

所以我能很自然地与她互动。

And that's why it's seamless for me to play with her.

然后他也会参与进来。

And then then he gets involved.

从来不会觉得别扭。

And there's never weirdness.

从不会感到任何不适。

There's never a level of discomfort.

没有任何方面会

There's there's nothing that is awkward in any way.

这完全是一种真正美妙的体验。

There it's just a genuinely amazing experience.

而且她本来就是个火辣尤物，所以这也没什么坏处。

And she's fucking a smokeshow anyway, so that doesn't hurt.

但她会明确表示，她对我特别感兴趣。

But she lets it be known, she's interested in me specifically.

这是完全不同的情况。

That's a very different situation.

这感觉比去参加活动、派对、俱乐部什么的要好得多，不用猜对方是否对你有意思，或者只是因为没更好的选择才对你感兴趣。

It feels much better than going to an event, or to a party, to a club, whatever, and having to guess as to whether or not someone is interested in you, or interested in you out of lack of better options.

是啊。

Yeah.

那是完全不同的情况。

That's a very different circumstance.

没错。

Yeah.

是啊。

Yeah.

就像是啊。

It's like Yeah.

我们讨论过

We've talked about

很多次了。

that a lot.

这之间绝对存在差异

There's definitely a difference between the

天壤之别。

Huge difference.

巨大的。

Huge.

没错。

Yeah.

还有，我想说的是，让我困扰的是，过去与我发生过关系的男性在给予赞美时总会刻意提及我身材的变化。

And well, and the other thing I will say is I've had the the one thing I have had happened that bothers me is men that I have been sexual with in the past were marking on the body changes when they're providing a compliment.

换句话说，他们不只是说'哦，你看起来很棒'。

So in other words, it's not just, Oh, you look great.

而是说'哦，你看起来真不错'。

It's, Oh, you look great.

然后紧接着说'你明显瘦了好多'。

You've clearly lost so much weight.

这感觉就像在说'好吧，你认识我更胖的时候'。

And it's like, Well, you me when I was bigger.

所以那时候你其实对我不感兴趣吗？

So were you not attracted to me then?

那完全是假装的吗？

Was that entirely just was it fake?

你当时其实并不喜欢我吗？

Did you were you not really into me?

这确实是那种情况，尤其是女性也会这样做，当然，出于不同的原因。

It's really one of those things where especially well, women are women do it too, obviously, for different reasons.

但男人在这方面真的很笨拙，你懂我意思吗？

But men are so clumsy when it comes to You know what I mean?

就像那种情况下，我看到某人，比如这个例子中的女性，明显因为某种原因瘦了，可能我不知道她为什么瘦了。

Like if that's In a situation like that, where I see someone, a woman, let's say in this instance, that has clearly lost weight for whatever reason, maybe I don't know why she's lost weight.

可能不是健康的原因。

It might not be a healthy reason.

我不知道。

I don't know.

但如果我见到她，本能地意识到有些不同，特别是与她体型有关的变化，我只会简单地说：哇，你穿这条裙子美极了。

But if I see her, and I realize instinctually that something is different, particularly having to do with her body composition, I'll simply say something like: Wow, you look amazing in that dress.

就这样。

And that's it.

对。

Right.

我不需要说，哦，看起来你瘦了半个人似的。

I don't need say, oh, it looks like you've lost half a person.

天啊。

Holy shit.

发生什么了？

What happened?

你他妈是在跟我开玩笑吗？

Like, are you fucking kidding me right now?

所以基本上，你是在告诉我，你以前觉得我是个超级大胖子。

So basically, what you're telling me is, you thought I was a giant fat ass before.

现在你注意到我瘦了几磅，就开始对我献殷勤了。

And now that you, you know, you've noticed that I've lost a few pounds, like, now you're paying me some attention.

我绝不会那么做。

I would never do that.

这太掉价了。

It's such a bad look.

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对吧？

Right?

这里有体育博彩。

There's sports booking.

应有尽有。

There's all sorts of stuff.

确实如此。

There is.

但当触手可及时，何必还要去赌场？

But when it's at your fingertips, why do you need to go into a casino?

是啊。

Yeah.

就算住在拉斯维加斯，谁愿意那么麻烦？

Even if you live here in Vegas, who wants to do that?

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Close your eyes for a moment and picture this scene.

好吗？

Okay?

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You are in your sexiest red outfits.

你准备好去见一群志同道合、性观念开放的人了。

You are ready to go meet a bunch of other like minded sex positive people.

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你走进人群，看到大家都衣着光鲜，愉快地交谈，轻柔的音乐在播放。

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And when play spaces open, you are invited into an array of different indulgence spaces allowing you to have the night that you want.

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Lest is in the air party on Saturday, February 8.

是啊。

Yeah.

如果你不在丹佛参加这个派对，那你就亏大了。

If you are not in the Denver area for this party, you are missing out.

我们在丹佛举办的这些活动——丹佛真实火辣太太派对——是我们的最爱。

These events that we host in Denver, the Real Hot Wives of Denver events, are our favorites.

它们总是售罄。

They are always sold out.

每次都是绝妙的体验，我必须告诉你丹佛的参与者有多性感。

They are an amazing time, And I gotta tell you how sexy the Denver crowd is.

天啊。

Oh my god.

丹佛的水里到底有什么魔力？

The sex what's what's in the water in Denver?

我不知道。

I don't know.

那是精致优雅的。

It is sophisticated.

那是性感迷人的。

It is sexy.

真是太有趣了。

It is so much fun.

这些派对，我们每次举办都充满期待。

These parties, we look forward to every time we host one.

我已经迫不及待想参加了。

I can't wait to get there.

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对吧？

Right?

润滑剂确实是个大问题。

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我不想让人们感到瘙痒。

I don't want people to get itchy.

我不希望人们在拍摄中途还得担心下面会开始灼烧。

I don't want people to have to worry that halfway through a shoot, they're going to start burning down there.

所以能够告诉人们这是低过敏性的感觉真是太棒了。

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And I think that my co performers really appreciated that.

我知道我的性伴侣们确实如此。

I know my play partners do.

毫无疑问。

For sure.

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呃，你懂的...

Well, I You know?

你看，只要我知道这是某人的目标且他们正在努力，我就会去做。

See, I will do it if I know that it's somebody's goal and they're working towards it.

对吧？

Right?

比如，我们有

Like, we have

朋友和我们我们

friends and we We

有个朋友减掉了差不多一半的体重。

have a friend who has lost, like, half of his body weight.

哦，是啊。

Oh, yeah.

他明确表示那就是他的目标。

And he has made it clear that that was his goal.

他想变得健康。

He wanted to get healthy.

没错。

Yeah.

在我看来，他简直判若人。

And he looks to me, he doesn't even look like the same person.

不。

No.

我完全可以坦然地说，老兄，你看起来棒极了。

I have no issue being like, man, you look amazing.

是啊。

Yeah.

完全同意。

Absolutely.

这和我认识的一个刻薄的人不同，我曾有个非常亲近的人患有严重的饮食障碍。

That's different than somebody I who's mean, I had someone very close to me that had a very serious eating disorder.

她多次谈到，当人们听到'天哪，你看起来气色真好'时...

She's talked many times about how, you know, the more that people would be like, Oh my God, you look so good.

你是怎么做到的？

What are you doing?

这就像一种动力，一种驱动力，促使她继续以不符合健康饮食的方式进食。

It was like this motivator, this driver to continue to basically not eat in a way that was in alignment with healthy eating.

哦，我在做什么？

Oh, what am I doing?

我在吃少量食物然后每天吐三次。

I'm eating small breasts and throwing up three times a day.

就是这样

That's what

我在做。

I'm doing.

比如，你他妈在说什么？

Like, the fuck are you talking about?

比如，对，就是别说那种话。

Like, yeah, just don't say that.

没必要。

It's not necessary.

是啊。

Yeah.

你知道吗？

You know?

除非有人说，我是说，我一直在拼命。

Unless someone says, I mean, I've been killing.

我已经减了55磅，而且，你知道的，还行吧。

I've lost 55 pounds, and I'm, you know, okay.

我支持你。

I'm with you.

酷。

Cool.

非常非常

Very very

非常 是啊。

very Yeah.

我觉得在这种场合下察言观色很重要，大概吧。

I think it's important to just read the room in that situation, guess.

嗯，是啊。

Well, yeah.

另外，因为每个人的反应都会有所不同，如果你不了解对方的情况，那就谨慎行事。

Also because everyone's gonna be a little bit different, and if you don't know people's situation, then just go on the side of cautious.

是啊。

Yeah.

你永远猜不到。

You never know.

就是啊。

Just yeah.

我是说，男生们真是太笨拙了，连赞美的话都说不利索。

I mean, guys are so fucking clumsy with compliments.

他们总是话不经大脑就脱口而出。

They just they the words come out before they even think about what they're saying.

就像，老兄，先花点时间想想清楚。

It's like, dude, just give that some thought for a second.

你懂我意思吗？

You know what I mean?

就像，先深呼吸，认真想想那些话从你嘴里说出来会是什么效果。

Like, just take a breath and really think about what that's gonna come sound like coming out of your fucking mouth.

明白吗？

You know?

这对我来说太奇怪了。

It's so weird to me.

不过，是啊，这是个独特的处境，而且我觉得你要面对的，特别是...等等，在我深入之前先问个问题。

But, yeah, it's a it's a unique place to be in, and I and I think what you're gonna be dealing with, especially, you know, the well, let me ask this before I get too far down the road.

我们俩已经反复讨论过生活方式如何改变，我们在各方面追求什么，以及什么对我们重要。

You and I have talked now, ad nauseam, about how the lifestyle is changing for us, and what we're looking for in various ways, and what matters to us.

其中一点就是我们要尝试多样化的玩法。

And one of the things we've talked about is kind of diversifying the way we play.

对吧？

Right?

无论是和一对伴侣还是单独一个人一起，都行。

With a couple or a single person together or whatever.

你觉得呢，我也不知道。

Do you think and I don't know.

你们得告诉我，因为你们看了我们所有的东西。

You're the ones gonna have tell me because you look at all of our stuff.

我不看这个。

I don't look at it.

你觉得现在会不会有人试图联系我们，这些人以前不会这样做，因为现在我们的情侣合照看起来不一样了。

Do you think we're going to be people are gonna try to communicate with us now that wouldn't have before because now our couples pictures look different.

对吧？

Right?

你看起来不一样了。

You look different.